No problem is ever made better by talking about it. On the contrary, word gets around, and whatever is bothering you gets rehashed.
NOTE TO SELF: Don't talk about problems.
Be flexible in your viewpoints. No one likes absolutes, no one likes being told they're wrong. Be agreeable, bend and fold.
NOTE TO SELF: Don't have opinions.
No situation is made better by walking away. It's taking the easy way out, it's being a quitter. Learn ways to cope with bad situations. Turn the frown up-side down.
NOTE TO SELF: Stay in bad situations.
Adapt to situations you are in. Know your audience. Don't be disagreeable. Don't be disliked. Keep peace. Get along. Be respectful.
NOTE TO SELF: Be what other's want. Don't be yourself.
I can see the past unfolding as the present. I can see the error of my ways. I feel the wounds of the people I have treated badly, the things I have done to them, and I see myself falling into patterns, doing the same things to others. I see the circle closing as a result, less and less people. And I feel lonely and I want to reach out but I hear, so loud, the wailing of the ones before, and I know I am still the same person, and I see pattern in my behaviour, and I worry about doing the same thing again.
The way I'm feeling now is the way I always feel after. If only I hadn't.
If only I hadn't spoke.
If only I hadn't shown my feelings.
If only I hadn't have been myself none of this would have happened.
And I feel like King Kong, gone out to the city to say hello and the entire world reacted in terror and ran, and I couldn't understand why.
And I want to lick my wounds,
and go to my cave,
and stroke my cat,
in the dark,